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2010-10-12T01:20:00.002+08:00

hi keen! this skin i random pick one. i go pack my bag ready lo. click the about then navigate using the archives. tmr needa wake up damn early. have fun! :P

2007-06-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

i realised that i am kinda emotionaly fragile..
today i woke up.. both my right leg and shoulder hurts.. starting i had a bit of difficulty walking but now is fine i think.. my shoulder still hurts.. cannot move much.. tommorow is my camp..4 days 3 night.. so long.. hope my shoulder will be ok..today had dental appointment.. like always.. there would be a wave of sadness but longing for the next appointment..yea.. life had turned out abit better for me ba..it is still thanks to you.. well.. stop here le ba.. if not i would keep typing and typing..yea.. good luck for my own camp..i will be missing you..

2007-06-02T01:32:00.000+08:00

my sister bled..yea.. and i witnessed it..she was crying.. there were alot of blood.. she was hugging my mum tightly.. tears were flowing out like the blood.. tried all i could to help.. reminded me of the time when i bled.. dad and younger bro was there..

everything ended..i realised their life might have been better without me.. like always.. leaving the house silently.. shutting the door as i went.. maybe thats the point my dad make me to live alone ba.. cause life would certainly be better for them without me around.. well.. if my mum know what a miserable life i am having now.. that would certainly put a smile on her face.. she would have a wish granted..

thanks for letting me know what i should have known.. really thanks for saying it out.. even though you told me that it wasn't my fault.. but i know it still is.. you are just innocent thats all.. i shouldn't had cause you to be upset.. i am sorry.. i am just so useless..

haiz..my heart hurts..and i know.. it always does..

2007-06-01T02:49:00.000+08:00

maybe my life isn't meant to be good for me at all ba..why am i the only one that is interested..after everything that we had been through..haiz.. nevermind ba.. sorry if i made you upset or unhappy..i just wanna find out how much i mean to you..just wanna find out how much would you sacrifice for me..well.. you told me what you wanted to..and i found my answer..whether you told everything or not.. i am just hurt..thats all..you never knew how much you mean to me..you never know how hurt i would feel..thanks for all the happy memories..really appreciate it..well..maybe you just don't mean the things that you say..things that you once told me..doesn't seem to fit with the things that are happening now..please correct me if i am wrong ba.. and all that i know..life will never be the same for me anymore..

2007-06-01T02:19:00.000+08:00

the lyrics of a song i once wrote..
well.. but i guess i won't have the chance to sing it anymore..

staring at the sunset
knowing that it will never rise again for me
but there was you..
the light in my darkness

gazing at the velvet night sky
oh how much the stars they shine for you
just like you..
you are so beautiful

looking at the times we spent together
looking on the days we had
though they were short
but will i never forget
and i will never break your heart
cause you know that
i love you..

spending time with you
is one thing i treasure
being the one for you
is the greatest thing ever

looking at the times we spent together
looking on the days we had
though they were short
but i will never forget
and i will never break your heart
cause you know that
i love you..

2007-05-30T01:57:00.000+08:00

anyway..
kinda made this skin myself
hope you all like it
yea.. i know you all would be nice and say its nice
but..hope you all would be frank about it
anyway just scroll around
all you need is scrolling
sorry for not tagging
kinda busy

2007-05-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

haiz.. everyday sucks.. sometimes i wish to end my life.. what is the point of living anyway.. parents.. friends.. studies.. almost everything.. is making my life miserable..feeling really very tired.. haiz.. once again.. i am lost.. that feeling that is within me when i see her.. its so.. heart-breaking.. i don't why.. i feel so angry easily.. i started hating two person.. i feel so much hatred towards them.. being in this cold and lonely world.. no one is being there for me anymore.. haiz.. whatz the point of studying and being good or anything when no one cares.. tore my compo today.. no point keeping it also.. haiz.. i don't know why.. when i see people cry.. i also feel like crying.. is life really that dissappointing? i don't know what i should do now.. i wanna break away from the misery i am having everyday.. but i just can't seem to go on with life..tired of having sleepless night..tired of being hurt.. bleeding again.. haiz.. go back to staring into the night sky ba.. if it is so easy to hide the pain..

2007-05-08T13:04:00.000+08:00

edited on this sorrowful day.. using my bro's comp.. all the best for all your papers..

2007-04-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

another hurtful and lonely day at the dental clinic.. was feeling so cold.. went to search for my stuffs.. but didn't manage to find any.. maybe didn't look out for them ba.. who knows.. haiz.. i don't think anyone need me le.. =( ... you have found someone else that can make you happy le ba.. you don't seem to need me anymore.. if she cares for you more than i do.. then i have nothing to say ba.. anyway.. looking forwad to next thursday.. don't know why i am always looking forward to thursday.. ohya.. and.. today during history class.. i found out something that can make me temporary forget everything in my mind.. isit good or bad? i don't know.. anyway.. tommorow will be the last day i will be coming online frequently ba.. no one will cherish also.. so i am just typing for fun.. =D.. sometimes i feel like a kid.. yearning for care and concern.. but not anymore le ba.. don't worry.. i won't cry like a kid..

2007-04-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

it must be a good thing ba.. just found out how much people do not care about me.. after all the things that i did for you.. maybe my exsitence really don't mean much to you anymore.. maybe you don't even need me anymore.. but.. who cares? since you don't care anymore.. why should i? if it is really so easy for you.. why can't it be easy for me? you were the only light in my darkness.. the only white dot in my world of black.. the only motivation i have.. now that you are gone.. my life is falling apart.. maybe you should just make me a memory ba.. it might be good for you.. thanks for all that you have done for me.. i appreciate it.. as for me myself.. i really hate myself.. i am struggling to live in my own dark and lonely world.. i don't wanna sleep anymore.. let me die of fatigue.. i won't smile anymore.. let me die eariler.. i don't care..

2007-04-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

hpm.. yesterday even though i was tired.. didn't manage to sleep ba.. in the end i slept at 5 06.. woke up at 11 plus today.. think too much le ba.. haiz.. like always.. life with my family has never been good.. today qurralled with my mum again.. i hate her.. why is she causing so much pain to me.. my dad.. yea.. anything don't want all throw to me.. all the used before things all give me.. all the new one all for my other sibilings and my parents.. life sucks anyway..

2007-04-08T01:26:00.000+08:00

today still ok ba.. just that ended up abit sad.. haiz.. anyway.. thanks for making me start smiling today.. hpm.. kinda tired.. the picture of me in the frame on the desk lost its support and fell.. just like what a failure i am.. no matter what i do i always seem to get hurt.. anyway.. i wanna change that ugly face in the frame to someone else.. i won't give up de.. sometimes knowing too much is never too good.. you might disagree with me.. but after you exprienced what i felt.. you will understand..

2007-04-07T01:04:00.001+08:00

hmm.. not a good day today ba.. got things i want to say but.. haiz.. i don't know ba.. anyway.. kinda sleepy.. tommorow still getting punishment for my cca.. yea.. thats all.. hope tommorow won't be that bad ba.. bye..

2007-04-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

hi people.. nope.. just feel like bloggin.. haiz.. how's life lately? hmm.. one thing about bloggin is that i can sigh.. without anyone replying.. haiz..i think my mind is missing.. i cannot think of anything.. my emotions are going crazy.. i feel like my world is slowly spinning down to die.. who knows ba.. it might just break apart rather than stop spinning.. haiz.. if only people care..

notice

2007-04-04T01:16:00.000+08:00

after quite some time the heart shape is finally formed.. i think not adding anymore or taking away anymore things le ba.. hope you all will continue tagging.. thanks..

sorry..

2007-04-02T02:05:00.000+08:00

sorry for not blogging.. and tagging.. the main reason is cause i suck.. i suck more than you can imagine.. i am a complete failure in disguise.. i hate myself.. sorry for everything.. sorry to everyone.. i really hate myself.. life sucks.. i can't find a sense of belonging anywhere now.. i don't know what to do.. i just suck ba..