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Saturday, June 02, 2007 1:32 AM / top

my sister bled..yea.. and i witnessed it..she was crying.. there were alot of blood.. she was hugging my mum tightly.. tears were flowing out like the blood.. tried all i could to help.. reminded me of the time when i bled.. dad and younger bro was there..

everything ended..i realised their life might have been better without me.. like always.. leaving the house silently.. shutting the door as i went.. maybe thats the point my dad make me to live alone ba.. cause life would certainly be better for them without me around.. well.. if my mum know what a miserable life i am having now.. that would certainly put a smile on her face.. she would have a wish granted..

thanks for letting me know what i should have known.. really thanks for saying it out.. even though you told me that it wasn't my fault.. but i know it still is.. you are just innocent thats all.. i shouldn't had cause you to be upset.. i am sorry.. i am just so useless..

haiz..my heart hurts..and i know.. it always does..