it must be a good thing ba.. just found out how much people do not care about me.. after all the things that i did for you.. maybe my exsitence really don't mean much to you anymore.. maybe you don't even need me anymore.. but.. who cares? since you don't care anymore.. why should i? if it is really so easy for you.. why can't it be easy for me? you were the only light in my darkness.. the only white dot in my world of black.. the only motivation i have.. now that you are gone.. my life is falling apart.. maybe you should just make me a memory ba.. it might be good for you.. thanks for all that you have done for me.. i appreciate it.. as for me myself.. i really hate myself.. i am struggling to live in my own dark and lonely world.. i don't wanna sleep anymore.. let me die of fatigue.. i won't smile anymore.. let me die eariler.. i don't care..