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Friday, April 13, 2007 12:51 AM / top

another hurtful and lonely day at the dental clinic.. was feeling so cold.. went to search for my stuffs.. but didn't manage to find any.. maybe didn't look out for them ba.. who knows.. haiz.. i don't think anyone need me le.. =( ... you have found someone else that can make you happy le ba.. you don't seem to need me anymore.. if she cares for you more than i do.. then i have nothing to say ba.. anyway.. looking forwad to next thursday.. don't know why i am always looking forward to thursday.. ohya.. and.. today during history class.. i found out something that can make me temporary forget everything in my mind.. isit good or bad? i don't know.. anyway.. tommorow will be the last day i will be coming online frequently ba.. no one will cherish also.. so i am just typing for fun.. =D.. sometimes i feel like a kid.. yearning for care and concern.. but not anymore le ba.. don't worry.. i won't cry like a kid..

Monday, April 09, 2007 11:47 PM / top

it must be a good thing ba.. just found out how much people do not care about me.. after all the things that i did for you.. maybe my exsitence really don't mean much to you anymore.. maybe you don't even need me anymore.. but.. who cares? since you don't care anymore.. why should i? if it is really so easy for you.. why can't it be easy for me? you were the only light in my darkness.. the only white dot in my world of black.. the only motivation i have.. now that you are gone.. my life is falling apart.. maybe you should just make me a memory ba.. it might be good for you.. thanks for all that you have done for me.. i appreciate it.. as for me myself.. i really hate myself.. i am struggling to live in my own dark and lonely world.. i don't wanna sleep anymore.. let me die of fatigue.. i won't smile anymore.. let me die eariler.. i don't care..

Sunday, April 08, 2007 11:43 PM / top

hpm.. yesterday even though i was tired.. didn't manage to sleep ba.. in the end i slept at 5 06.. woke up at 11 plus today.. think too much le ba.. haiz.. like always.. life with my family has never been good.. today qurralled with my mum again.. i hate her.. why is she causing so much pain to me.. my dad.. yea.. anything don't want all throw to me.. all the used before things all give me.. all the new one all for my other sibilings and my parents.. life sucks anyway..

1:26 AM / top

today still ok ba.. just that ended up abit sad.. haiz.. anyway.. thanks for making me start smiling today.. hpm.. kinda tired.. the picture of me in the frame on the desk lost its support and fell.. just like what a failure i am.. no matter what i do i always seem to get hurt.. anyway.. i wanna change that ugly face in the frame to someone else.. i won't give up de.. sometimes knowing too much is never too good.. you might disagree with me.. but after you exprienced what i felt.. you will understand..

Saturday, April 07, 2007 1:04 AM / top

hmm.. not a good day today ba.. got things i want to say but.. haiz.. i don't know ba.. anyway.. kinda sleepy.. tommorow still getting punishment for my cca.. yea.. thats all.. hope tommorow won't be that bad ba.. bye..

Friday, April 06, 2007 2:09 AM / top

hi people.. nope.. just feel like bloggin.. haiz.. how's life lately? hmm.. one thing about bloggin is that i can sigh.. without anyone replying.. haiz..i think my mind is missing.. i cannot think of anything.. my emotions are going crazy.. i feel like my world is slowly spinning down to die.. who knows ba.. it might just break apart rather than stop spinning.. haiz.. if only people care..

notice Wednesday, April 04, 2007 1:16 AM / top

after quite some time the heart shape is finally formed.. i think not adding anymore or taking away anymore things le ba.. hope you all will continue tagging.. thanks..

sorry.. Monday, April 02, 2007 2:05 AM / top

sorry for not blogging.. and tagging.. the main reason is cause i suck.. i suck more than you can imagine.. i am a complete failure in disguise.. i hate myself.. sorry for everything.. sorry to everyone.. i really hate myself.. life sucks.. i can't find a sense of belonging anywhere now.. i don't know what to do.. i just suck ba..