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haha! Tuesday, October 12, 2010 1:20 AM / top

hi keen! this skin i random pick one. i go pack my bag ready lo. click the about then navigate using the archives. tmr needa wake up damn early. have fun! :P

Tuesday, June 05, 2007 9:16 PM / top

i realised that i am kinda emotionaly fragile..
today i woke up.. both my right leg and shoulder hurts.. starting i had a bit of difficulty walking but now is fine i think.. my shoulder still hurts.. cannot move much.. tommorow is my camp..4 days 3 night.. so long.. hope my shoulder will be ok..today had dental appointment.. like always.. there would be a wave of sadness but longing for the next appointment..yea.. life had turned out abit better for me ba..it is still thanks to you.. well.. stop here le ba.. if not i would keep typing and typing..yea.. good luck for my own camp..i will be missing you..

Saturday, June 02, 2007 1:32 AM / top

my sister bled..yea.. and i witnessed it..she was crying.. there were alot of blood.. she was hugging my mum tightly.. tears were flowing out like the blood.. tried all i could to help.. reminded me of the time when i bled.. dad and younger bro was there..

everything ended..i realised their life might have been better without me.. like always.. leaving the house silently.. shutting the door as i went.. maybe thats the point my dad make me to live alone ba.. cause life would certainly be better for them without me around.. well.. if my mum know what a miserable life i am having now.. that would certainly put a smile on her face.. she would have a wish granted..

thanks for letting me know what i should have known.. really thanks for saying it out.. even though you told me that it wasn't my fault.. but i know it still is.. you are just innocent thats all.. i shouldn't had cause you to be upset.. i am sorry.. i am just so useless..

haiz..my heart hurts..and i know.. it always does..

Friday, June 01, 2007 2:49 AM / top

maybe my life isn't meant to be good for me at all ba..why am i the only one that is interested..after everything that we had been through..haiz.. nevermind ba.. sorry if i made you upset or unhappy..i just wanna find out how much i mean to you..just wanna find out how much would you sacrifice for me..well.. you told me what you wanted to..and i found my answer..whether you told everything or not.. i am just hurt..thats all..you never knew how much you mean to me..you never know how hurt i would feel..thanks for all the happy memories..really appreciate it..well..maybe you just don't mean the things that you say..things that you once told me..doesn't seem to fit with the things that are happening now..please correct me if i am wrong ba.. and all that i know..life will never be the same for me anymore..

2:19 AM / top

the lyrics of a song i once wrote..
well.. but i guess i won't have the chance to sing it anymore..

staring at the sunset
knowing that it will never rise again for me
but there was you..
the light in my darkness

gazing at the velvet night sky
oh how much the stars they shine for you
just like you..
you are so beautiful

looking at the times we spent together
looking on the days we had
though they were short
but will i never forget
and i will never break your heart
cause you know that
i love you..

spending time with you
is one thing i treasure
being the one for you
is the greatest thing ever

looking at the times we spent together
looking on the days we had
though they were short
but i will never forget
and i will never break your heart
cause you know that
i love you..

Wednesday, May 30, 2007 1:57 AM / top

anyway..
kinda made this skin myself
hope you all like it
yea.. i know you all would be nice and say its nice
but..hope you all would be frank about it
anyway just scroll around
all you need is scrolling
sorry for not tagging
kinda busy

Tuesday, May 22, 2007 10:23 PM / top

haiz.. everyday sucks.. sometimes i wish to end my life.. what is the point of living anyway.. parents.. friends.. studies.. almost everything.. is making my life miserable..feeling really very tired.. haiz.. once again.. i am lost.. that feeling that is within me when i see her.. its so.. heart-breaking.. i don't why.. i feel so angry easily.. i started hating two person.. i feel so much hatred towards them.. being in this cold and lonely world.. no one is being there for me anymore.. haiz.. whatz the point of studying and being good or anything when no one cares.. tore my compo today.. no point keeping it also.. haiz.. i don't know why.. when i see people cry.. i also feel like crying.. is life really that dissappointing? i don't know what i should do now.. i wanna break away from the misery i am having everyday.. but i just can't seem to go on with life..tired of having sleepless night..tired of being hurt.. bleeding again.. haiz.. go back to staring into the night sky ba.. if it is so easy to hide the pain..

Tuesday, May 08, 2007 1:04 PM / top

edited on this sorrowful day.. using my bro's comp.. all the best for all your papers..